girls are dangerous

its long time since i posted anything. was kind of busy. i mean to say, my lead had given me some work after a long time. i mean real long time, and some work that really makes some sense and wil not put my effort in dustbin. i have made this policy for myself. always give first priority for company works, for they come up very rare in time. anyway, one thing made me happy yesterday. it carries its soothing effects till some more days to come. i got my first salary hike. 20 percent. hee hee. you may think this is not a matter to celebrate. to tell you the truth, even i think so. that makes me happy, but thats not a thing to celebrate. i forgot to tell you that, this one friend of mine, forget his name, i caunt take his real name and that bugs me to be creative everytime i give a imaginary name to my friends here. anyway, this friend of mine, was depressed some days back. i wil tell u the reason as well. he called me to my cell that day, and u know what after getting totally boozed. its true that ppl get this strange strong intense force within themselves to talk with someone. even i feel the same and i call someone close if no one is around me. i call puppy even if the whole throng is around me and thats different. what i want to tell u is, its really difficult to handle someone, hu is already fully boozed. above that he is alone, he is crying. above that he is depressed over something. above all he is depressed that his love, gave him her handle. i mean she kicked him off away. man, i feel disgusted when someone asks me to hush down a baby crying, how wil i manage this moron. moreover the repeated assertion by him that 'girls are dangerous' made me kind of dreaded. i mean, i always think that am very pragmatic, these changes around me never bother me and all. this ruined the very existence of my belief. i mean, i always believed puppy will never bother me after getting married to someone and all. i will be as very normal kind of. but this very idea of marriage takes me too far and confuses me to the core. then was it, that i read somewhere, somethings are better left as they were. so i left this where it was. still to this point i know, puppy will bring a good powered hurricane in my soft splendid grass life. it was this sunday that puppy told me, her father asked her to go with him for some matrimonial hunt. when she told me this, i never reacted. not that i was startled or anything, but i was emptied in thoughts u know. its better u never reply, when u wont have the confidence that ur reply will rock. its time for me to leave. will continue sometime later k, c ya.

neha turns puppy, and puppy ?

puppy asked for my blog address today. am sorry, this is no new character r anything. this is the same neha of my story, and that i keep calling her anything i want. bad part is that she wont listen n turn to me inspite of me calling her by watever name i want. except for this one word by which i called her that day. i dont remember what the word was. but she called me 'hopeless ass'. this english is wierd and confusing to the core. it has got some thousands and thousands of words which have double meanings. girls themselves are confusing to the core. this adds up to double confusion. she explained that she meant some animal with a tail and four legs when she meant 'ass', later some other day. but u know, crazy ppl think in crazy ways always. watever it may be, but i never hate her. may be i feel like hating her some times, i never actually do.
it was three days since she spoke to me. no calls, no missed calls, not even a sms. above all she says she missed me a lot everytime she meets me after a long time. god damn it. she thinks am a fool ? this is the problem with most of the girls. if they are not snobish and egoistic, they look pathetic and are dumb to the core. if they have even a bit of either smartness r beauty, man u can never look at them. they give u such a feeling that u'll go and hang urself up. but still u can not hate them. i will bet anything over it. boy, u can never say a girl that u hate her. any girl infact. atleast not puppy.
now again i hate calling her puppy. this puppy, r whatever i call her, keeps telling me, how some other phony friends call of her, called her by that name. now come on man. this is heigths. any guy wont like someone else to call his pet ones by their pet names, which u kept. i agree, i didnt keep that name originally. but they can give up. they can give up atleast this name for me to use. now, am thinking of someother name to call her. am not that creative n all originally u know. no one is, if u really wanna know. everybody copies something and take the credit. or may be they mix two or more things up to make a unique solution and call it their unique style. i hate it. i dont mind copying though. i mean, there is nothing wrong in that. if someone copies u, that means they like ur style. thats a compliment. however not in case of the word 'puppy'. thats for me n only me.
now that i did not give her this url, she gave up asking me for it. man, two more times, i would have given her this url. or she could have found that out by herself. may be she can never. crazy ppl not only think crazily, they keep this crazy names for their blogs. anyway, she never forced me. thats what she does always. u wont call her up for weeks, expecting her to guess am angry over something, and come to me in a sweet and low tone. she never cares for u. she thinks she's very smart and understanding. u give up at the end, u call her to say loud mouthed that u r angry on her, guess what she says ? "i knew u were busy last week, atleast i can understand thatmuch". god, give me a break. how can i tell her openly, "u dumb ass, am angry cause u called me 'hopeless ass'". but u know what, i still wont feel like saying her that she's a dumb ass. take out ass, i caunt even say her 'u r dumb'. may b cause am dumb. call me dumb, i dont mind. but not everytime, only for today. never call puppy like that, how dare u.. go away..

about me, neha and toys

here i go, writing my first post. I really dont know why people keep this title before and then the contents. For some reason i hate this. i mean people does'nt even know what they are intending to write about. specially if u r writing this blog.
I dont know what people write in their blogs, but i use it to bare myself. boy, believe me i look scrap when am bare. everybody look scrap when they are bare. bare from their normal look ups and make ups i mean. even otherwise thats true. people look pathetic phtsically bare also. dont mistake me i have not seen any1 naked. except myself. even that was not intentional. these hotel guys keep a large mirror in bathrooms to look at ueself when u r naked. i dont know what thats meant for. i really dont know. a girls photograph would have been a better choice rather.
Anyway, let me tell u, i dont bug u here telling my all sad and embarrasing moments of life. its different that ones embarrassing moments become the greatest comedies for others. i am no exception to this. i prefer laughing. i dont mind if am laughing at someone r am laughing with someone r am laughing at myself. i really dont. may thats what makes ppl around me say am a backbiter. but am not. i personaly feel no one should get sore only because someone laughs at them. provided thats not a girl. man, it kills u when girls laugh at u. i mean it.
so this is not my '5 point someone' story or something. i have lots of reasons to say this. a) am not a five pointer. i had been a topper once. b) there is no neha here. ofcourse u get to meet some girls, but no one is neha here. c) i personally hate someone describing how u feel kissing a girl and having sex with her. afterall she is ur girlfriend. how can u talk like that?
If u ask me, all girls in the world should be put behind bars. they are all thiefs. they take our hearts away. they do it so easily. even with a tough guy like me. how can they do so. again there are exceptions for all statements. i love to see girls crying. i mean, afterall this is the only weapon god has given them. but for some reason, this neha of my book never cries. god she never cried even when i said i hated her. boy, this is the point in ur life u start going down. she says she likes u very much n all that sweet words. u say, u dont love her r anthing, thinking that one tear drops, i will hug her n cry out loud "I L U", only to see that she never cries. bullshit.
I can still remember that day when this girl, neha of my story was telling me the same sweet love story of she n me. for some reason i wanted her to cry, but she never did that. and the wierdest part is, i dont know why, suddenly i felt like crying all of a sudden. Man, if i think of that today, i feel like crap. i cried and all, fine. Then she started to do all these things that some girl, any girl for that matter does to keep a child silent. boy, that really killed me. U know. i always like this kind of romance. go sit in front of a girl and start crying. she does all these ticklish things that u turn up giggling very soon. be a toy, be her toy. i love to be a toy, but i hate toys. afterall men hate other mens too. specially if they try to cry with me. ;)

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